Ramble on...

The day has almost come to a close and if there was a day to start drinking itd be today for me...Up since 6 and still going...a whole bunch of delieveries, i pit stop for like 20lbs of chocolate one broken down van one really pissed off boyfriend of a girl i delivered to and 3 weird contract drivers. i need a stiff drink and 3 tylenol pm later...if i ever get out of here.
Until later....this is an exhausted fish...signing off...

Good morning all and happy valentines day! so begns a glorious whirlwind day that includes flowers chocolate cursing hating my family even more than i already do and throwing customers out of the store....im so pumped. atleast its not snowing like last year. well i must be on my way. may i extend my warmest greetings toyou amd your loved ones for a happy VD!

Until later....this a very reluctant fish to get out of bed amd start the day....signing off...

bamboozle today was awesome..full story to come tomorrow! :)

so recently i've found myself hanging out with scotty ingwersen, whether it's @ the firehouse, the barn, krista's, etc. It's kinda weird bc when i first met scott, he was the guy @ the deli, my sub at school, and the drummer of the awesome band copperpot who i fucking loved. back then, he was more of a superior because he was technically one of my teachers, but he was still friendly and such. after i was out of high school, i still saw him @ the deli and such, but didnt really talk to him outside of that. prob starting this past fall we started bullshitting and hanging out, and becoming friends. now its gotten to the point that my once superior and "idol-esque" figure, has become one of my best friends. we can honestly talk to eachother about any fucking subject on our minds: family trouble, love lives, why we're still in new jersey(the jury is still out on that).  its just cool because i never thought that it would get to this point. he's a cool guy and gives me a lot of good advice, and i thank him for that. dick. haha

next topic!

girls suck. hah. no, but seriously, they're fucking retarded. as davey would say, with his little spazmic motions, "YOU PLAY WITH MY EMOTIONS!" gotta love davey.

...until later...this is fish...signing off...

i would not recommend working with your family. it sucks, and if you get into a fight @ work...you can't get away from it by going home because guess what...they're there. valentines day just keeps on getting better and better.......umm...i was kidding.


until later...this is a perturbed fish...signing off...

and so it has begun. The week of all things unholy in my family, known as valentines day week(or more affectionately known around the fischer household as "Happy V-D!") I wish that i could be anywhere but here right now. I'd much rather enjoy a good cuban with fidel than work most likely an ungodly amount of hours from tomorrow until wednesday. maybe ill find another cheap valentines day date, who, like my last v-day date 3 years ago, wanted to go to mcdonalds. I'm totally game for that. i honestly would like a low maintenance "im going to wear sweats and not give a shit around you" kinda girl bc honestly...i feel the same way. hahah. aint love a beautiful thing?


until later...this is a starbucks deprived(not for long) fish...signing off.

sinus infections are the worst thing ever. ughhh.

on the brighter side...i started writing a story...its prob going to suck but it takes up some free time that i have and gets some thoughts out of my head.


until later...this is a stuffed up fish...signing off

just heard most of our recording...i cant wait to hear peoples response on it. my over all reaction: it fucking rocks.

I am pumped like hell! The other day we got confirmed to play the SXSW(south by southwest) Festival in Austin, TX. So many bands have hit it big there, such as recent acts John Mayer(early 2000) and Hellogoodbye.  I can't wait just to experience this whole atmosphere and go see an assload of awesome bands play.

so i know that some people read this journal just to read it, entertainment if you will, and others read because you rock. i need all of you who read, no matter who you are, to just ask me anything that you've ever wondered about me, my life, my doings. anything. im just in the answering mood and feel like spilling my guts.

do it.


until later...this is fish...signing off...




(if you're an "annonymous" user...list your name, damnit :) )

I'm not really too sure what happened today, but around 2:30 I got a call from Antonio to meet him, ken and johnny roxx at a storage place in haledon, because they had to go through some things and bring them back to antonio's house.  Little did i know what i was getting myself into.  So i got there, only to find a storage cubical full of...shit.  And the sole purpose was to find this VHS tape that antonio made from 1990-1994 that he lent to his friend, whos storage space this was. It was a complete disaster: old mattresses, thousands of magazines, shovels, rakes, brooms, paperwork dating back to the 70's, this dudes elementry school diploma, etc. Needless to say, we trashed this fucking place, but, didnt complete our original task: Find the video tape.  We got a shitload of other stuff, but no damn tape. 


one word: Insanity. but, i loved it. hahah


until later...this is fish...signing off...

so as i layed in my bed the other night not tired at all, i decided to pull out my trusty  writing notebook and scribble down a few thoughts that were on my mind. now mind you that this is rough, and written at approx. 2:30am, so i apologize if it blows, but i just wanted to put it out there...for no apparent reason.


To: My Longing Favorite

Dont come back and act like nothing ever happened
This is a serious situation that you keep pusing off
"I'm busy yesterday, today and tomorrow."
Is all I keep getting, that's not going to work
Grow up and face this situation like you should
With time growing longer, the gap grows between
Like the distance you've traveled
My mind wanders far.
To that hot balmy desert, you call your new home
Where you hide all your problems under an ever growing stone
It's not getting better by burying the past
This facade of false happiness will not always last
It's not that im angry, just more sad and lonely
And missing those days that we shared together
So pleasant and so peaceful, the best ever had
Come home to me now and we'll fix all our problems
We'll go back to those times we shared in the sand.

Love: Just Believe Fate


that's all for now...sorry for putting you through that...whatever that was.


until later...this is a sleeeeeeepy fish...signing off...

Recently I've been second guessing my exit from the college scene. I mean, yeah, I'm taking a few bs online courses, but it's kind of a fake college experience. Don't get me wrong, I love what I'm doing right now, the band that is, but, I don't know. Looking back at things, I shouldn't have let my family effect the choice of my school. My first choice of school was eastern michigan university. Awesome AT(athletic training) program, which at the time was what I wanted to do. I think that if I had gotten out of the jersey lifestyle for a while it might have been a good thing for me. As much as I say that I hate school, there's still a part of me that misses it a bit.

But, I chose music. And honestly, its something that I have wanted for a long time. I can remember going to shows @ skaters world and grace church and envied the bands that played like no need for a hero and copperpot, and even eastbound. Bc it involved two things that I love: music and entertaining people. Nothing beats that feeling of going out infront of a crowd, no matter how many people, and just rocking the fuck out, playing an awesome set, and making the people happy that came to see us. That's the amazing thing about music, it brings people together. Young and old. Black and white. Its an amazing thing music. That's why I love it so much.

Well that's all for now. Hope everyones turkey day was a good one.

Until later...this is a sleepy fish...signing off.


Ps- how do you tell someone that they're the only one for you, and that no one else in the world matters. That you love them so much, you would do anything for them no matter what it is?

I'm pumped for some turkey. Anyone else?

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Its that time of life again. The time where everyone around you is getting hitched/getting a signifigant other, and there you stand, you and your left hand(or right, in some cases) hah jp about the last part but honestly, why is it that when youre all not wanting a girlfriend/boyfriend, all of these people like you and shit, and then when youre ready and open for a relationship, (in the words of lou/ted) BAM!!! ya got nothin'. uber gay if i do say so myself. blah.

..until later...this is an alone...but fucking hungry fish...signing off

ohhhh billy joel. what a good man he is. hahha


so the title. yeah. the past month or so i've been contemplating many thing. one of them that always seem to sneak its was in there is the thought about going to switzerland...permanantly. it was on my mind since last year...well really, ever since i went there about 2 years ago w/school, and was brought back into my head by my uncle this year when he came back from switzerland, telling me about some different schools there. i love the place. in my contemplation, ive thought about dropping everything here and just going over there and attending school. it'd be a go in there cold type of deal, hope to find a job and a place to live...and cross my damn fingers that i get into a school over there. this march, i'll be getting a little taste of my dream, because i'm headed to switzerland w/some family for my cousin kim's wedding. i've run this by a few people so far, and no one likes the idea. but it's all for the same reason. "no you cant go ill miss you too much" blah blah blah stuff like that. but what about me? maybe this is somthing that i just need to do. get out of this place i've been my whole life and go somewhere new. somwhere thousands of miles away. this is all just an idea as of now, but im working on it. probably will go down this summer or a next fall. i need money first, so it helps that i just got a raise. so until then, my nights will be spent at home or friend's houses spending no money. i just need to get a plan of something solid down and soon.


...until later...this is a swiss fish...signing off...

i cant wait til thanksgiving. i <3 food and eating its awesome. andddddddd...everyone is coming home :D. i saw myers the other day and thought to myself...wow..this is completely different than seeing him every day. thats when i realized that i really miss boyle(no homo boyle) and prisky, and yackster, donathan, w00z!, everyone! :(

come back, quick!


until later...this is fish...signing off...

Well ladies and gents, im off to the great state of New York this weekend to get hammered and gamble all of my money, and my family's money away. Well, actually, im going for my aunt and uncle's 50th wedding anniversary, but thats only for 4 hours of a 3day weekend! and what sucks is that some of you are home this weeekend :( damn. well ill miss you kids!


...until later...this is fish...signing off...

news flash...woz doesnt swallow...but she does need a "losenge"



and the answer woz..no i dont value my life ^-^